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i haven’t experienced the burden of faith in awhile

as a little girl i used to pray silently at night

“dear god, please let this lingering sorrow fade away. i would like to be happy again”

it felt as if god was laughing at me

“my foolish child, you must learn”

to others it is concerning how early i thought about death

but it was so prevalent in my youth

i barely remember a time before grief

broken vows, sickness, chastity

i learned how to swim before i took my first steps

i still don’t know what i am supposed to learn

i know i’ve been taught to be angry

to silently swallow my pride

but i’m a very sentimental woman

and i can’t help but feel guilty for making the right choices

-e.i.a

05/29/2023